ARGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

shit people pushing me around! gave me names, asked me to look for them, beg them to accept me, asked me to wait, endless wait, gave me names, asked me to look for them, beg them to accept me, asked me to wait, endless wait and it went round like that for a month?!?! i really cant imagine i was so stupid! running around like a shit ass?!?!? i'm sick and tired of all these! 2 weeks left to the damned submission date and i still don't have a shit group to be in! been pushed around like a damn stupid idiot and tearing up my face to beg everyone to let me join and after seeing the fun of begging, they let me wait like shit! i've been through hell alright and i'm stuck halfway. shit all those people! will there ever be a place for loners?!?! it's like shit you're alone! don't join my group! what's wrong with being me?!?!?!

if i can have one wish granted right now, i'd have me being the one who is begged at, i'd have me being the one letting others wait, i'd have me being the happy guy in the end. anybody ever tasted left out before? anybody ever tasted the torture of waiting? shit you people are really pissing my head off! right now, i just wanna forget bout everything, drown in the ocean never to resurface, melt to the ground i'm stepping on, and vanish into thin air!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! freaking shit asses!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!